Welcome Im lost LOL!

Idk what im doing here i made this to learn how to code websites so that one day i can start to earn income so i don't have to work in retail and i can be at home. Hopefully one day that will happen. I'm also using this as a form of therapy to vent what im feeling i guess. I hate starting small and working my way up(who doesn't these days) i just wish i can just wake up being great at what i like to do.

i tired to learn to code html first then im learning css to desgin the background so it wont just be ugly, but good i feel like i forgot everything i was learning RAGHHHHHHHHHHHH